I don't know about others, but sometimes I just can't help it but hope something tragic happens to me, something so devastating that everybody's attention would be drawn to me. I'm too used to imagining crazy things; about how i would stand up and speak for myself if someone accused me, about how i would throw a punch across my GKY's face , about how it would be like without certain people in my life, about how it would be like if i died (nothing suicidal, i don't want to die so young). At this very instance, i feel like something tragic should happen to me. I need to create a dramatic scene, enough to draw people's attention. A major something should take place so that people can tell me they want me.

I'm probably too use to having people's attention 24/7, thats why i'm making a big fuss out of the lack it. Yes i'm troublesome, yes i'm hard to pamper. Too bad my dad's sperm and mum's egg made me a guy who is so hard to please. I'm probably exagerrating every single tiny mini bit of truth here so just treat this like any other entry, written by some peter john paul sam in timbaktu(sp?).

I should start doing some mental prep for tomorrow, all the best to myself, me and i. Credits go to the school for making us so stressful and fucked up over life, thank you!